Neuroleptic Malignancy

Close my eyes as I look deep within
Hoping to find something that is real

As I walk through the
Passages of my mind
I find that I have lost myself

Searching for answers within
I find nothing
Everything is bleak
In this mind so empty

Where have all my thoughts gone
What is consuming my brain
These pills are supposed to help
Not just make me worse
Why is my brain so weak
It cannot function
I feel myself go deeper
Every day

Whispering
Ideas of motivation
Nothing gets better
My moral fails

Nothing remains
Of my past life
Happiness an emotion
I no longer feel

Feel
I feel nothing

Self loathing kicks in
I must end this wretched life
Who do you think you are
To try and stop me

Sinking the knife deeper
Into my skin

Into my
Skin

I look down upon myself
From my celestial view
Realise I was never anything