Hopeless

Empty piece of paper,
fragments of my mind,
through the earnest way I lived
since I was a child.
Now I need an answer,
no one understands.

The meaning of life
is clear no more,
I see no reason to carry on.

Into the dark this instant
close to my last breath,
thinking of the right means
to take out this inner death,
I confide in my faith,
strange, it seems so vain.

Despair surrounding
has left me hopeless
there's only one escape I know (tempting)

Resigned I'm ready to get in touch
with nameless fright,
to let the cold everlasting come to me!

I trust in you
my only friend,
please keep my memories
safe till my end.
I took my choice (you were free)
I know the consequence,
now I wait...

"You poor being,
I sense your distress,
your intellect is undervalued.
I have your answer,
admiration for a lifetime,
my proposal you cannot refuse..."

Is now this chance
you're giving to me
too real to be a dream?
From this time on
I've nothing to lose
until I meet you again!

Goodbye my friend,
my fate is done,
forgive my flaw
don't cry when I'm gone.
My path will lead (to the end)
to what I'm looking for,
but this deal
has the highest price.